Gordon called me today...just as I was walking into Sacrament meeting. So, I walked the halls with Brooke talking to him. I got some funny looks from people.
Anyways, he is doing well. He's not sick anymore and got his voice back, so he sounded normal. I was so not expecting him to call when he did and I'm pretty sure I just sounded stressed. Then 5 minutes into the conversation, Brooke said "mommy peepee big!" So, I took her into the bathroom as I was on the phone. I looked ridiculous juggling our stuff, the phone, Brooke, toilet paper, etc. Poor Gordon got a frazzled wife to talk to on the other end. After that though, Brooke was an angel and ate her fish crackers and drank her juice on the couch so I could talk to him. It was so hard! I've decided that I don't like him calling me because it just makes me miss him more. I don't like it one bit. Of course I was crying by the end of our conversation and then I really got some strange looks.
Like I've mentioned earlier, some days are harder then others and today just happened to be particularly hard. Darn it. I hate him being away so much but I know that in the long run it will be a good thing. And, he is loving what he is doing even though it's hard for him too.
So, yeah. Today was a little crappy.
And if you're going to leave a comment saying the rest of the time will just 'fly by' then don't bother. Tons of people have told me that and guess what? It feels like he's been gone for a year. Time doesn't fly by.
On the bright side, he's half done and has 5 more weeks left. That's good, right? {I'm still sort of trying to be positive about this whole thing...}
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